Sundar chhabi bhajan . . .(Having seen your beautiful countenance)

Imagine you have the utmost fortune and privilege to be a Gopi of Vrindavan who is profoundly in love with Krishna, and Krishna too in love with you...what more do you ask for??

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The impulse to compose this bhajan came from a very strange incident. I was walking to my room to get something and just as I was about to open the partially closed door, through a narrow gap from the cringe I noticed someone Handsome...As if gazing at me and anticipating my arrival with eager eyes (wow). It was nobody else but my very own Kanha idol....(sighs).I decided to play some more games with Him. So I kept catching glimpses of Him and giving some in return through that tinny-winny gap and before you know it, I went into a trance...the "gopi trance". I started to fantasize a gopi like me who could have done the same millenniums back . Suddenly, My fantasies began to acquire poetic words and here is the little piece of dream in my/Gopi's words.

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Sundhar chhabi dekhi teri,

Wahi thamgayi ankhein meri.

Huwi meh Krishna deewani,

Mohan maya se gheri.

Chhup chhup dekhe mohe, meh bhi usseh dekhu

Tirchi najariyaa se, laakh baatein kehdu.

Areh reh sharmawoo, woh muskaaye

Bansi bajaa ke, mohe uksaaye.

Haiye marjawu - dil haaru- rehejaawu prem nagri.

. . .Jag dodha, meh wahi theheri,

Preet laagi re badi gheheri.

Huwi meh Krishna deewani,

Mohan maya se gheri.

Tere samaksh meh, bol na payee

Padh chehere ko, samajh judayee.

Janamo se nainaa, tujhpe bichhe hai,

Aabhijao ab, pran tadpe hai!

Chal udjaaye - khojaaye- Hojaaye hum ek jaan.

. . . Kitne janam jiye zeheri,

Taardo ab no karo deri.

Huwi meh Krishna deewani,

Mohan maya se gheri.

Mann aangan mein, basgaya sanwaraa,

Vanmaali ka, huwa mann banwara .

Khoyi khoyi duniya mein, Hum rehte hai,

Kahe mangu swarg jo, Kanha milte hai ??!

Meh yahi mangu - yahi chaahu - sang tera ab sadaa.

. . . Tum ho mere, meh hoon teri,

Teri hi naam ki mala pheheri.

Huwi meh Krishna deewani,

Mohan maya se gheri.

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Hope you guys enjoyed my ...erm...Daydream? ( That too, a beautiful one!)

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THE ENGLISH TRANSLATION ( esp for LUEN) :)

This eng poem is like word to word so it might sound "un-rhythmic ". I have tried to make it like a cool translation but forgive me for errors, kindly :)

Love you all

Having seen Your beautiful countenance,

My eyes have come to a standstill.

Enamored of Krishna, I am now.

Surrounded with His Maya, I am now.

Stealthily He looks at me, Stealthily I look at Him,

With coquettish eyes, we convey a million whims.

Oh man I blush! and He smiles teasingly,

Gets me enticed, playing His flute lovingly.

Oh I surrender - I succumb - I reside, in His loveland.

. . .The world proceeded, but here I remain in enchantment

'Coz infinitely deep to Him, is my attachment.

Enamored of Krishna, I am now.

Surrounded with His Maya, I am now.

Incapable I was, in conversing my inhibitions,

Read my face, acknowledge this separation.

From genesis, my eyes were fixed on You,

Arrive O Beloved, now life yearns for You!

Come let's soar - let's vanish - let's unite, into one being.

. . .Many poisonous lives I have bore,

Liberate me now, delay no more.

Enamored of Krishna, I am now.

Surrounded with His Maya, I am now.

That Black One is housed, within my heart's chamber

Mad are my senses, for that garland wearer.

In a spellbound realm, we both dwell now

Why wish for heaven, when Krishna is with me right now?!!

I only beseech - only desire - only want Him, forever!

. . .I am Yours, and You are mine

Only your name, I chant all the time

Enamored of Krishna, I am now.

Surrounded with His Maya, I am now.

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phew....That was mission! Hope u guys liked it though! :)

Happy Radhasthami!!

What can be said of her,whose beauty charms and enchants the enchanter Himself? Yes folks, she is our beautiful Radhikarani. Not many people are aware of the transcendental qualities of this pulchritudinous lady. Why is it that Krishna might delay in responding to His name but answers immediately to Radha's call or anyone who chants her Name? Let's explore why, this Radhashthami. . .

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She is an extension of Krishna, She is the feminine aspect of God. Thus, in the Gaudiya Vaishnava tradition, God is both male and female. They are one, but Krishna expands into two, Himself and Radharani, for the sake of divine loving pastimes. If They remained as one, then there is no relationship, there are no pastimes, and there can be no dynamic exchange of love.

She is also known as Sarva-kanti, which indicates that all beauty and luster rest in Her body, and all the Lakshmis derive their beauty from Her. Sarva-kanti also means that all the desires of Lord Krishna rest in Srimati Radharani. As Lord Krishna enchants the world with His beauty and charm, Sri Radha enchants Him. Therefore She is the Supreme Goddess. Sri Radha is the full power, and Lord Krishna is the possessor of full power. (Cc.Adi-lila, 4.82, 84, 87-96) Thus, the two are non-different, as the sunshine is nondifferent from the sun, or as the energy is non-different from the energetic or source of energy.

In this way, without Radha there is no meaning to Krishna, and without Krishna there is no meaning to Radha.

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The descriptions of the beauty of Radharani are wonderfully poetic and descriptive. Actually, the residents of Vrindavana care more for Radharani than they do for Lord Krishna. They know that Krishna can be influenced through Radharani. They know that Radha can bring one to Krishna. It is explained that Srimati Radharani has unlimited transcendental qualities, of which twenty-five are principal:

1) She is very sweet.
2) She is always freshly youthful.
3) Her eyes are restless.
4) She smiles brightly.
5) She has beautiful, auspicious lines.
6) She makes Krishna happy with Her bodily aroma.
7) She is very expert in singing.
8) Her speech is charming.
9) She is very expert in joking and speaking pleasantly.
10) She is very humble and meek.
11) She is always full of mercy.
12) She is cunning

13) She is expert in executing Her duties.
14) She is shy.
15) She is always respectful.
16) She is always calm.
17) She is always grave.
18) She is expert in enjoying life.
19) She is situated in the topmost level of ecstatic love.
20) She is the reservoir of loving affairs in Gokula.
21) She is the most famous of submissive devotees.
22) She is very affectionate to elderly people.
23) She is very submissive to the love of Her friends.
24) She is the chief gopi.
25) She always keeps Krishna under Her control.

(how much do you score out of 25??!)

How can I complete without quoting magnificent quotes on Radhika's beauty? Here we go:

"When Srimati Radharani smiles, waves of joy overtake Her cheeks, and Her arched eyebrows dance like the bow of Cupid. Her glance is so enchanting that it is like a dancing bumblebee, moving unsteadily due to intoxication. That bee has bitten the whorl of My heart." (Vidagdha-madhava 2.51)

"Although the effulgence of the moon is brilliant initially at night, in the daytime it fades away. Similarly, although the lotus is beautiful during the daytime, at night it closes. But, O My friend, the face of My most dear Srimati Radharani is always bright and beautiful, both day and night. Therefore, to what can Her face be compared?" (Vidagdha-madhava 5.20)

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Janmashtami 2011

Happy Janmashtami! This post is late and unfortunately this time I have no photos to upload but let me tell you something you already know - it was breathtakingly beautiful.

The best part was that I got to take my grandmother and uncle with me. I have been so eager for them to come and see the empty halls that become beautiful with the presence of Krishna, His associates and His devotees. It truly is the Lord's mercy because I am always keen to take my grandmother out on festivals but I don't always get the chance to do so.

Anyway, we couldn't stay very long so we just planned to take darshan. And I also desperately wanted some of that glorious charnamrit! Yum yum. So we entered the hall, and I was feeling good to be amongst devotees again after so long in this festive atmosphere. Then I started to hear the kirtan that was going on, and my heart started to swell. We took darshan of Krishna and I found tears in my eyes. How does this happen? Everytime I go to the hall feeling normal and fine and when the kirtan starts and Krishna appears before me in His infinite glory, I am just taken in. Then I want to stare and stare and beg Him to love me even though I know He does. I wanted to stay there forever. It just felt so amazing to be there!

Darshan ended quickly as there was a really big crowd so we had to keep moving. Then we got amazing prasadam and I got my long desired charnamrit! Ooh I can taste it now. I never liked it before but now I am just crazy about it! It's the best!

There were many devotees doing seva like handing out gifts, prasadam, and keeping everyone's shoes/sandals in a bag. It was so endearing to see little kids of 10 years doing their bit to help out. The Lord is so merciful that He has engaged them in serving Him like this. When we were taking back our sandals, this one devotee did something so sweet. The person volunteering to give back sandals emptied out the bag and so our sandals were on the floor. My grandmother turned over my sandals and I wore them and the next thing I knew, I saw a devotee bending down turning over my grandmother's sandals and helping her wear them! She didn't really need the help but he thought she did and without hesitation he proceeded to help her. Now this was truly amazing for me to see because since I have OCD, the idea of touching shoes and sandals, that too someone else's, really puts me in an anxious state. And here was this devotee of the Lord, looking to serve another devotee. And he wasn't worrying about germs. He didn't care that they were someone else's sandals. To him, he just wanted to serve and help. My grandmother too was touched by the act. I was simply amazed. It's really true what they say about kind deeds - no matter how small they are, they sure do go a long way. I have no idea who that devotee is but may Krishna bless his heart.

This Janmashtami reminded me that I needed to spend more time with Krishna and it also gave me something to think about with regards to my OCD. Sometime ago, I was praying for good health and I felt like something inside me said that on Janmashtami, the birth of Krishna, I will also have a new birth. I took this to mean that all my health problems will go away since that's what I was praying for at the time. But now I'm starting to think perhaps it was more a spiritual rebirth. Maybe the idea of rebirth was just in my head and not really the Lord promising me something, but on Janmashtami, I realized that I still have a connection with Krishna even though I haven't spent a lot of time with Him lately and He is still resting in my heart. I haven't felt an emotional connection with Him in a long time, and that was just a such nice gift from Him on Janmashtami. Moreover, it was really crazy the things I had to do that day! Like walking barefeet! That is something I haven't done in a really long time because obviously I dread the idea of germs even on my feet. But the Lord gave me enough strength to do it. And later, a flower they gave us at the program fell on the floor, and of course, I dread picking up things that have fallen on the floor. Even if I pick them, I try not to touch the part that touched the ground. But this was a flower. Plus it was used in Krishna's service. If anything, instead of becoming dirty, it would purify me. So I picked it up and didn't bother about which side had touched the ground. Again, my strength comes from Krishna. He says in the Gita that He is the strength of the strong, and the only way I can be strong is through Him. So you see, He helps me in these ways to get over my fears, and from time to time, he rekindles our relationship tirelessly, despite the countless number of times that I put the flame out. And I know that He will always do so for us, out of His unconditional love.

I hope all of you had a blessed Janmashtami too. Share your Janmashtami stories in the comments section if you please :)

Hari Ghanshyama Bhajan . . .

For me, the closest way to connect to my Kanhaji is to sing/write songs to Him. I might be discordant, cacophonous or unmusical...But He still listens. He does...

I might be a complete neophyte in understanding and battling with mundane affairs. I might know nothing ;however,the little that I know and can do, I will do....to ink down my love and longing for my beloved Lord.

I will sing and write to him in any state of jubilation or catastrophe.....because, that is what i can do best for Him. This too, is very insufficient to show my gratitude for His Abundant love for me.

We all have special ways of bridging to Him. It really does not matter even if it is unconventional, untimely or uncommon -If He responds, then you are set! That's all you want, right?

The bottom line is to feel the divine euphoria in your means of uniting with Him.After all, when you are happy- He is extrahappy :)

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Bhajan karu meh Hari ghanshyama

Oh dinn dukhiyo ke sahara, O dayala.

Bhajan karu . . .

Sansari dukh hai aur jeevan mein pida,

Beheti hai ankhon mein aansuwo ki dharaa.

Janam maran se mukti do mujhe , Mere Kripala

Aavu meh Vaikunth tere Dhaam, O Sundar Kanha

Bhajan karu . . .

Tan aur mann mere pran se alagh huwe,

Bansi ki dhun me, Kahi surmayi se khogaye.

Sab kaam chhod sonchu tujhe, O salone

Phir ungliyon ne likhe ,prem bhajan woh tere.

Bhajan karu . . .

Naam smaran bus tumhara hai saancha,

Leke tera naam, Mann morr bani naacha.

Kisse kahu meh mann ki batiyaan, O Murliwala?

Iss jag mein Ek tuhi hai , mere geet ko sunnewala.

Bhajan karu . . .

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Ps: If ever anything is unclear in any of my songs or posts, feel free to ask questns...(somehow i alwys forget to write this)

Happy Belated Krishna Jayanti all! :)