Lord Hari-please attract me more!

As without the sunlight, the lotuses can’t blossom, without Hari’s sweet & kind intention to attract me, I can’t think of him….

Kodhai(Andal) lived for 15 years absolutely immersed in Hari bakthi…If only I could get just 5 mins from her 15 years, I’ll consider myself lucky! And during those precious 5 mins(generously shared by my elder sister Kodhai), I shall grab his beautiful lotus feet and ask him, “Hari, let me constantly have this love for you ever & ever…no matter how many births this soul awaits to take, let me always be bound by your love….let this heart be filled with over-flowing passion for you! Let this mind & intelligence be fixed on you! Let me please you with my thoughts & deeds! Let this mouth always sing your names and your glories, let this ears always hear about you! Let me forget myself in thoughts of you…….let me unite with you!”


For what better purpose this birth was blessed on me?
Only to please Hari, serve Hari, Talk about Hari, Write about Hari…..above all, Love Hari whole-heartedly!! What else can give this happiness? What else can give this pain? Who else other than Hari can make me so crazy? Who else can this heart hold when there is no space literally as Hari has occupied all the space!


I have never loved anyone so much, have never been angry with anyone so much, have never craved for anyone so much, have never talked about anyone so much, have never cried for anyone so much, have never laughed so much, have never been aroused so much, …..all the emotions are directed to him. Like how the waves belong to the sea alone, all my emotions are greedily taken by that Hari……yet everything feels so little…not even close to the size of a drop of water in the ocean…..why do I want Vaikuntam? Why Do I want heavenly planets? All that this heart yearns is to love him more, experience this love for him again & again & again…..


Oh!! Mother Earth is my home----will return here as much as possible to think of him, wander hither & thither singing about him, Shall be housed in a place encircled with sweet & colorful flowers which I shall pluck singing about him, deeply immersed in love, make beautiful garlands and decorate him, Shall decorate myself with sweet smelling flowers and beautiful attire for him to gaze at me & embrace me, shall rag him, chide him, play with him, be mad at him until he consoles me, shall grab him and celebrate love with him……shall make him happy, so happy that he sheds tears of joy! Shall give him immense pleasure to the extent that he starts to sweat and pant! Oh! What will I do to ease the situation for him other than stroke his beautiful hair with my delicate fingers!!! Shall cook for him, serve him & fan him while he eats.., as a gift for the delicious food I shall partake some food along with him…..shall massage him with oil and bathe him……though his wife I shall take care of him like a child!!! Vaikuntam cannot facilitate as much as my mother Earth facilitates me----!!!! I keep asking myself then…..”Ok what is the end then? When only will this soul reach Vaikuntam-his abode and unite with him eternally?” My only answer is…”Hari only cares!!!! Who am I to care? Only He belongs to me……He decides every step for me….When He is there why should I keep wondering about other things?” All that I want is “BIRTH” to love HIM and unite with himJ- He only gives desires….He is the DOER! Who am I but a puppet in his hands!!


I beg him to attract me more to him!

Message to Lord Hari..

Hmm My Lord Hari, won’t you come out of your intricate maze and reveal yourself to me?

You are the one who stole this heart and now how could you be so detached from me?

You are one who came chasing me but the moment I looked around to find you, YOU have GONE to the invisible city to which no one knows the route!!!(atleast I do not know the route)…

The more I try to find you, the more you hide behind the screens…

The more I try to understand you, you try to make it more complex for me by hiding in puzzles..

The more I want to be with you, looks like you make me chase you more vigorously…..I do get breathless Hari….!

The less or more I talk to you….your ONLY response is SILENCE!!! Am I talking to my bedroom walls Hari? Hmm…even in that case, the walls would have given me some response to my tears?

Is this fair on your part dear lord??

I have told my friends that you are easily approachable with a lot of confidence in you…now you are contradicting my understanding is it dear lord?

Is it a new test? Or a new game of love?

Whatever be it…..am yours! You have full authority on me. Am ALL yours for ever & ever! You may play any sort of game whether it brings smile on my face or tears on my eyes…both are same to me as long as this heart is glued to your enchanting form….

Dear Narayana.., If you are going to complain about my inadequate devotion to you & if you are going to establish that as a reason for not coming in front of me , dear Lord, here …I have only one response to all your complains……**am Surrender unto you totally**...Nothing belongs to me except YOU Hari! Am like a clay in your beautiful hands. You have to give your desired shape, color, size and make it your favorite pot! What control does the clay have Hari????? Can the poor clay turn into a beautiful huge colorful pot on its own? I can’t even untangle myself from materialistic complex knots all by myself without YOU then how do you expect me to please you Hari……?

You should only bless me to please you Hari……forever!

You should bless me to make you HAPPY…forever!

You should make me a worthy instrument in your hand….forever!

You should ALWAYS keep me attracted to you alone…..

The moment I place a cup of milk in a vessel and say, “krishnarpanam!” thinking about you, it becomes yours, isn’t it? I place myself on a bed of roses and say.., “Krishnarpanam!”……..only the roses reach you is it sweet Hari? I don’t think so my pillows get drenched in tears of those lucky roses Hari? ……oh if you have misunderstood……please watch me closely Hari…….my pillows get drenched out of my unstoppable tears………my bed sheets get drenched out of passion for YOU alone Hari…..

Nothing more can this shameless creature say Hari……

I Love you my dear lord…..perhaps it is nothing in front of your eyes after having immersed in the immense love of your other dear girlfriends and consorts BUT please remember dear Narayana this heart doesn’t crave for anyone or anything else as it craves for you! You have swallowed my entire heart and forgotten all about it totally L

An Untold Story!

HI Guys..,

It has been my dream to post this blog here for the past 3 to 4 months. You will realize the reason as you keep reading the blog as to why I was skeptical all this while. Well, we generally talk about the stories of Krishna/Hari right? Or we do write poems on him...but this blog of mine is quite different. We all have so many fantasies about our Krishna, don't we? Like sometimes when we hear few stories about him (esp kothai, meera, Radha such kind of devotees) we end-up thinking, "how nice it would have been if I was born like her!!!" I am generally a very dreamy person! I don't know...I keep dreaming many things about Hari...I keep dreaming about our union almost everyday. I write many things which I dreamt or dream (I do not post ALL of them here).....but this story which I have posted below(is one of my beautiful dreams-i had written it long back) Somehow just thought of sharing it with you guys....

Please go many thousand years back..........*** Am Chandrika here*** Its okay....chill !!! Atleast let me have fun dreaming....let me stay satisfied with my dreams on Hari....lol!

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Chandrika was a beautiful young girl who was brought-up listening to many amazing stories of Lord Sri hari.
She lived in a small yet beautiful village which was close to Dwaraka. She had immense devotion on Sri hari.
She kept talking about Hari all the time to her friends & her family. Her family was as well devoted to Lord Vishnu.
        Her great grand father had long back built a temple for lord Hari in her village. It was indeed a beautiful temple in which the form of hari was so majestic and charming.
He was in his "Anantha sayanam" rupam. There was as well a sanctum for Lakshmi matha.
She visited the temple every morning & evening. She had an idol of hari in her room and always kept talking to Hari. She sang, danced, laughed, cried, fought, blushed in the thoughts of Hari.
One early morning she was drawing kolam(decorative designs) in front of her house while her mom was busy in the kitchen & her dad was engrossed in his pooja.
Chandrika sang Hari kirtan as she drew the kolam with her delicate fingers.
All of a sudden she got so excited when she heard a group of people singing "Bolo Narayana narayana Hari hari....Swami narayana narayana hari hari" The song pierced her heart!
That Saturday morning the sadhus were performing their nagara sankeerthanam (ppl sing the praises of hari in various streets in groups with all kinds of musical instruments while they walk and then go to temple to take darshan)
Chandrika couldn't just resist the Hari naamam(names of  Lord Hari).....She was in ecstasy the moment she heard the bhajans...she forgot everything including herself.
She dropped her small vessel down in which she had the rangoli powder and she ran to join the group.., along with them she danced & sang the Hari kirtan.
Chandrika joined the group even forgetting to inform her parents.
After a while her mom came outside to feed the cattle and was astonished at the unfinished rangoli and her daughter was missing too.
She ran in the streets calling out to Hari searching for her young & beautiful daughter.
One of the neighbours informed her mom about the incident that happened a while ago which relieved her from pain & anxiety.
Chandrika returned home after couple of hours once the bhajans & darshan was over.
She was really fretting about getting back home. As she imagined she was totally yelled at for leaving the home without any information.
She went to her room and cried to hari.
Such incidents took place every now & then. Few of her neighbours called her crazy. Chandrika never bothered about anything. She was always immersed in hari's thoughts.
Infact her friends used to tease her saying, "Hey.., this isn't just bakthi!!!! Looks like you are in love with Hari!!!!
We can understand just by looking at your thirsty eyes when u talk about him" & another friend said, "No NO We understand about it the moment your face brightens-up when we take Hari's name heheee"
Her dear friend Keerthi teasingly said, " haaan I knew the other day when you ran behind the ther(chariot) calling out Hari hari hariiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii........you are in LOVE!!!"
Chandrika blushed and her friends at once said, "YOU are CRAZYYYYYYY!!!!! He is GOD!!! How can u have feelings for him!! better change yourself chandri...its no good!"
Chandrika brushed away all the so-called advises given by her friends. She came to her room. saw her hari's idol, blushed, she couldn't even lift her face up and look at him.....her cheeks turned out to be pink.
Her heart was over-flowing with passion for Hari. She coudln't resist that moment. She ran to the door and locked it.
She walked slowly towards her Hari's idiol, took him in her arms, hugged him and kissed him all night.
Her thirst was not quenched, her bottled-up feelings was so much that she couldn't control herself..all her passionate emotions burst into tears.
She suffered the pain of separation from Hari. She couldn't bear it...She cried all night!
Likewise so many many sleepless & merciless harsh nights passed-by....She became impatient day by day and became very desperate to unite with Hari.
one morning when she went to the temple, she kept fighting with Hari...one old lady who passed by enquired, "Why are you crying so much dear?"
Chandrika- "Sorry ma...you won't understand:-(("
The old lady- "No pls tell me dear what it is....or show me your palms! Am a palm reader, I can tell you remedies for your problems whatever it may be!"
Chandrika- "Pls leave me alone ma!!! I have nothing to share with you....when the conserned person himself doesn't care about me why on earth would u care for me???!!!!!!!"
Old lady forcefully dragged her arm and read out the beautiful lines in her palm. She was amazed!!!!!!!! "WOW!!!!!! I have never seen such a lucky palm before ever in my life.
It says here that You will be married to the ultimate lord who is the king of all three worlds!!!!!! WOW WOW WOW......U r the luckiest!"
Chandrika's happiness knew no bounds....."WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT""" She cried out! She immediately just grabbed the old lady and hugged her tightly crying & kissing her everywhere possible.
 Chandrika took the blessings of that old lady who told her that any day Hari would come & ask for her hand.
Chandrika walked rather jumped back to home with so much of joy.....At the entrance of her small home, she saw a grand chariot with horses parked. She slowly peeped inside not knowing if it was right to enter.
Lakshmanan-her baiya(brother) came out and took her in.
Lakshmana introduced Chandrika to the guests who were on their way to Dwaraka all the way from Mathurapuri.  
Lakshmana said, "Chandri say namaste to Krishna ji & Balaram ji. They were in search of a small place to freshen-up and to give rest to their horses as their horses were tired from running all the way.
They asked me for such a place to rest and I brought them here to our home trusting that U & amma can prepare a nice & delicious lunch for these gentlemen who are on their way to Dwaraka"
Chandrika lifted her face up to say "namaste" respectfully to the guests and at once caught the glimpse of the dark & handsome guy she has ever seen or imagined. Her eyes widened, her heart skipped a beat, it was as though she froze for a second when she saw him.......He winked at her with a teasing smile, at once she turned her face down......She was shocked!!!!

Infact she was upset with her baiya for bringing home such strangers. She joined her mom in the kitchen and they cooked a delicious meal for their dear guests.
Mom, "Chandrika, pls help me in serving them!"
Chandrika, "MAAAA....Pls don't force me.....You serve the lunch & don't call me out AT ALL!!! PLZZZZZZ ma I beg you!"
Her mom frowned at her & continued pleasing their guests. Chandrika kept whispering in the kitchen...."Off-late lakshmana is loosing his senses!! How can he trust such strangers, bring them home & offer them feast!!!!!!how dare that guy winks at me!!!! Haaaan was sooooooooooooooooooooo handsome!!!!!!!!! sheeeeesh am I crazy to call him handsome! His eyes was filled with love for me though!!!! Hmmmmmmmm Little does he know that I belong ONLY TO LORD SRI HARI"
Very soon the feast was over and after some time Krishna & balarama were all set to take-off to Dwaraka. Chandrika thought to herself, " haaaan finally the flirt is leaving!!! What a relief!" suddenly a thunder gave shivers to chandrika and in no seconds it was POURINGGGGGGGG heavily!
Lakshmana & Chandrika's dad forced the guets to stay back that night and brought them in.
"Ohhhhh NOOOOOO!!!!! I should have stayed back in the temple itself today.... Sigh!!!" thought Chandrika though she was secretly excited in her heart. She din't know why though. She was forcing her heart not to feel excited. She was forcing her heart to stop thinking about that dark & handsome guy....." Ya well! Good luck to her!!!!
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It might be too long if I post the whole thing right away. So I shall post the next (the final part) as next sequel.

Am sure you guys would guess everything...no suspense in here(thats not the intention as well).....Wa those days(when I wrote this, I was jobless) almost the whole day I kept visualizing what if these thoughts were real u know...what if really really HARI Comes.....!!!! Wow!!! Infact we think we'll go & grab him....but actually we might be so shocked and freeze for several mins until he unfreezes us hahahahahaha.......What a goal to have na in life!!! Sounds crazy sometimes though!!!!!

PLEASE DO NOT BAN BAGAVAD GITA IN RUSSIA!

Hello folks,

Lets all try our level best to express our protest against banning Bagavad Gita in Russia.

I have signed couple of petitions in regards to this. ILWK is creating awareness & encouraging all of us to support this cause. Lets sign as many petitions as possible in this regard. As signing the petitions just takes about 2 to 3 seconds...lets all express our love for our dear Krishna this way as well.

Today I have created a new petition supporting the cause of saving Bagavad Gita from being banned in Russia. The below is the link: Kindly sign this petition and express your love & regards for Bagavad Gita.

http://www.petitions24.com/save_bagavad_gita_from_being_banned

PLEASE NOTE: once you sign the petition, pls check your inbox and do confirm your signature only then will it be valid!

ALSO NOTE: You guys might create petitions as well or circulate the one which you have signed to as many viewers as possible and lets together voice-out, "WE DO NOT WANT BAGAVAD GITA TO BE BANNED IN RUSSIA!!!!"

Hare Krishna!

Love,
LUEN

Pain of seperation!!!!

How beautiful is this pain!!!

What would I do without this pain??

Today I went to see my Hari (in T Nagar temple)… Only weekly once do I get to see him these days. But no complains….alarming?? I will explain… (atleast try)…

Meeting him is such a BIG deal!!!! I can’t even explain the hurdles completely…. We stay very far away from T Nagar…It takes about 1 to 1 & half hours to get to the temple by auto. I can’t go to the temple when I am on my way to office as the office cab won’t stop in between for personal reasons the same way I get back home past mid-night at times…So I never get a chance to meet him at all. So whenever I go to the City for some reason, I club it along with going to the temple. Like if I go to Perambur (my mom’s place). I don’t take a direct bus to Perambur. I go via T nagar and again while returning back I make a point to meet him. The funniest part would be whenever I go & see him; I have a pile of bags in my hand (dresses to stay at my mom’s place or some crap)… He laughs at me for that!!

Initially I used to be very open with my husband & in-laws that am going to the temple. It became such an issue that every time they used to say, “Perumal is here 5 mins away(there is a temple nearby)….why do you have to travel all the way to T nagar & get back all the way down just to see him??” …..I tried my best explaining…then slowly my husband started saying, “Okay….You always look for an opportunity to go to Tnagar….temple!! I don’t know why!!”  My relationship with Hari remains very very personal & secret (as everyone’s I guess except DP (ohhh Dad-daughter hehe).  I don't want to hurt anyone or embarass anyone by acting weird....It is better that certain things remain a secret! However, I started going to a bhajan class very recently wherein I get to learn Hari Kirtan from a wonderful lady….On every Wednesdays I have my classes…Am able to attend the class as my shift commences late in the afternoon. Hence every Wednesday, I go and see him…..:-) It’s a secret meeting though……I have no choice!!:-( Ppl think it’s weird to go to temple everyday….what am I supposed to do? Its weird to cry in front of an idol!!!!!!! Its weird to sing or chant! Its weird to Love the lord even as a friend!!! One is allowed to go to temple whenever one is troubled in life.. do namaskaram, perform arthi, have theertham, do archana but NOTHING more than that…….:-((( But its not weird to be a greatest FAN of actors/actresses and perform milk abishekam for pictures of men/women….and celebrate the meaningless songs sung in the praises of them!!!!! Now I don’t understand the meaning of “weird”………. J Maybe my (our) dictionary is different!

                         

                             However getting back to the pain of separation, Today when I met him…….I just cried & cried & cried as though having lost someone….. Everytime when I see him, It is such a wonderful feeling. I can’t go & hug him. So I place the thulasi garland close to my heart….hug the thulsi garland, kiss the garland & pass it on to him……I secretly place the garland in my chest actually end-up crushing the garland a bit pressing against my chest……then when I give it to the poojari, the garland would be so warm due to the body heat (hehe) Hot garlands for perumal hehehehe J….In T Nagar temple, you can actually come a little behind after his darshan and have a complete darshan of him even for half hr or more than that….the Q would be moving as usual you wouldn’t be disturbing the floating crowd but you can just get back to the prayer hall and take his complete darshan & no one would stop you. It is such a bliss!  Everytime.. I talk to him within my heart, cry, laugh & even feel very very very shy…..esp when I had imagined him very intimately in my heart the prior night…..I won’t even be able to look at him upfront because I know HE KNOWS EVERY LITTLE DETAIL…sometimes I really wish I could hide certain things from him :-( maybe its a girl thing!….then when I have to leave, I tell him when I’ll be meeting him next. I tell him any important updates if any…..everything you know….pretty much like meeting a boyfriend in a particular secret place. But every time when I say “Bye Ummah” I cry like anything……the pain of separation would be so unbearable! But you know I love thatJ whenever I don’t have that pain….I keep begging him to give that pain!!!!!!! The pain connects you with him! The pain ensures that he’ll COME one day!!!! Ya see… HE loves me (sorry ..us)….How long can he hide himself behind the screen letting us burn in the fire of pain? He will come!!!!

This pain of separation from him burns like fire sometimes and can’t be cooled by rivers of tears…..ONLY the nectar of his lips can cure the wound…….He is Danvantri ( Doctor for ALL)….How can he not cure his beloved ones from disease of separation? This soul can’t & won’t enter the gates of Vaikuntham unless He hugs me tightly in Bhoolokam. He only says in BG that, “the soul takes up different bodies according to one’s desire in the present life!!!!!” & as long as one has any kind of intense desire, the soul keeps taking different bodies to fulfill the desires (that’s karma)…… Okay maybe He won’t come in this birth……..FINE!!!! let him not!!!! This soul would take up another body and cry for him……may be he won’t come at that time again……okay am fine!!!!!! But until this desire is quenched this soul is going to take up N number of births and CRY CRY CRY CRY for him……burn in desire for him……………ok after 100 janmas or above…….atleast then HE would feel like coming in person right????????? Let him come……….I do NOT aspire for Moksha or anything until then…………………Let him come!!!!!! Whether it takes several yugas….or several births…..I just want HIM! I believe strongly whatever he says in BG!!!!!! The oceans might melt…..the mountains might be broken to pieces but HIS WORDS won’t go in vain!!!!!!!!!! I will wait for him………………………………………………………I love this pain! I love burning in desire for him for I know the outcome of all the wound in my heart………………..there is cure! Every day I think about that cure for my disease of love….this is a disease of thirst!……………He cares for this soul like for every soul…….That is true…..hence HE can’t dust me away from his heart, can he? He can’t shut his eyes  & laugh!!!!! can he????

This thirst can be quenched ONLY by him……..He knows that…otherwise why would someone call him “Antharyami”!!!!!!

Okay………..thought of just saying that the pain is beautiful…………….forgive me for any errors in this blog.....just vented-out things form my heart...

Qualities of Hari

Now this is a very challenging topic I have given myself as no one can complete his/her narration on this topic.
I so wanted to write here since couple of weeks but not very spontaneous as Tanvi(in writing bhajans), like ILWK(in poems) & like DP(in analyzing Hari).
Me being incompetent never stops me from writing about HIM because I always believe that HE accepts any scribbling with great compassion. Like how a mom appreciates a child's poor drawing of a green crow("so called crow"!!).

This morning I was talking to a devotee friend about his great qualities...so many things came up in that conversation which induced me to write about it.

I do not know where to start now....but shall just point-down whatever I feel about OUR sweet Sri Hari.

~ Lord Sri Hari is very approachable & down to earth

There are no standard rules as to one should DO this and DO that to please Hari. Even anger pleases him!! Am amazed at that very fact because not everyone can accept anger as much as they accept Love. For instance, King Kamsa constantly had wrath on him and all that Kamsa wanted to do was to defeat HIM. Hari reciprocated with Kamsa by fighting with him and ofcourse slayed him for good and we all know that Kamsa's soul did not enter the gate of hell but on the other hand attained the perfection of great yogis. Now tell me ...what does not please our lord Vishnu? He reciprocates with his devotees the way the devotees want him..Radha & Gopikas had deep desire for him and attained HIM out of that desire(he reciprocated with them according to their will out of love & compassion for them)..same way he reciprocates by fighting if that is what his devotees(like Kamsa & Ravana) want but every soul attains him! That is his mercy...Even in Srimad Bhagavatham the same is confirmed that "if one constantly have intense love, desire, lust, anger, devotion or anything on Hari, they attain HIM"

How approachable he is!!! Anything & everything is right for him...:-)) How blindly he submits himself to his devotees!! Are there any rules here with Hari?? Is there any difference in his eyes?? Love or anger, dirty or clean, Sword or kiss, pushing him away out of anger or grabbing him out of greedy love, Reciting vedam or fighting with him out of love, anything & everything HE accepts. Every emotion directed unto him is one for him...& everyone are equal in front of him. If one does not devote himself to Hari, it doesn't mean that He does not belong to Hari...He might turn-out to be a great devotee in future.....sometimes when we see ppl around us with less devotion, at times we might end-up thinking, "why r they wasting their time like this running behind false pleasure!!!??" you know Hari might laugh looking at that false pride of one's devotion which is nothing but Hari' s blessings. We end-up taking pride for which we are not the actual owners....:-(( after such horrible stages, I learned to think, "even if one pushes away hari, he is gonna grab Hari in near future(in this janma or any other)" similarly we would have too been in an illusion & would have ran behind material pleasure(which we still do by the way) in our previous births...so now who is a great devotee and who is not??? Everyone are equal to HARI... even ppl who say, "don't think of HARI" end-up thinking and uttering names of HARI- knowingly or unknowingly--and the best part is that Hari sees no difference and accepts any thought directed to him....How amazing can he be!!! He is approachable to anyone and everyone...:-)) As rivers attain the Ocean, every soul at one point or the other attains HARI (the super-soul) who resides in everyone.  

   Gopikas were so intoxicated with love for him that they forgot about their homes and came running to him...Few Gopikas were married but had to lie to their husbands in order to meet him...many gopikas' meetings with Krishna was a very secret affair. Lalitha sakhi(supposed to be a very intimate friend of Krishna & Radha) used to arrange for secret meetings of Krishna and his lovers! Now where are rules???? It is always devotion & love for him that matters.

**** One can compromise ANYTHING for Krishna but one shouldn't compromise KRISHNA for anything**** (this is what my very old devotee friend keeps telling often) I really admire this fact and thought I should have it shared here even if it is deviated from what we are discussing about.... sometimes situation can be very challenging...you never know what is right & what is wrong...At times things that appear to be wrong in the eyes of dharma when done for Hari(in pure devotion) becomes flowers in his lotus feet!

Meera disobeyed her in-laws due to her devotion for Vishnu. She was so tormented by her family who insisted her not to worship Hari...at one stage she couldn't put-up with the challenges she had to go through ...so Meera wrote a letter to Goswami Thulsidas-a great devotee of Sri Hari, & Thulsidas responded saying, " those who do not hold Rama and
sita ...dear,
shun them as your dire enemies,
howsoever closely related.
prahlada defied his father, vibhishna
deserted his brother and bharta forsook
his mother.
king bali disowned his perceptor
and the gopis left their husbands inorder
order to meet the lord , and the behaviour of them
all was a source of happiness and blessing to the
world at large .
it is in relation to god alone that all kith and kin are worthy of love.
what is the good of the eye-salve
that only serves to make one blind!.
Take up the hint : no more can i say
he is in every way a noble friend,
worthy of your adoration and dearer
to you than your life..."

Had Meera abandoned her family for a material wealth, it would have been a sinful act or acting deviated from dharma..but she did it FOR HARI out of her love for Hari and which is why we all still talk about her. 

Yes when situation demands, one should compromise anything for HIM as HE is valued more than LIFE... and anything done on that pure note to please Hari, he accepts with a broad & compassionate smile.
He lays rules as to how perfectly one should live on earth to attain him but Hari never lays rules for devotion & love which is why even ppl who had wrath on him attained him the same way as yogis attained him. Lust, anger, love...enemity all means the same to him as long as one constantly remembers him. He is so unbelievably approachable, down to earth & friendly that he accepts everything done by his devotees.

In BG he says, " I accept even a drop of water or a leaf offered with love to me" How kind he is! .....

Am so amazed how he could be so down to earth.....!!  The reason why I keep writing about the same fact many times is that I just want to convey that HARI IS ATTAINABLE!  I know .....all of us know that.. Its not a hot news! but when I really miss him, so many devotees have said this to me and immediately there is this rushed feeling in my heart ..."YES I will reach him one day...He will not forget me and leave me for he is my life! & without him am nothing" 

Its only fair to share the fact that "Hari is certainly attainable" even if we all know about it...it is always great to say this, write this, read it..."Hari is attainable!"

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First I thought of listing a lot of qualities of Hari but then just discussing one quality of Hari alone made this blog a lengthy one...so more in next (ONLY with his grace) as we are heading towards margazhi..

Okay now I shall better get going to office....Many around me keep cursing my odd shift timings but it has worked out to be best for me as somehow he blesses me to talk and write about him...I always cry and fight for that...as I don't trust my devotion...I only trust on HIS seducing skills:-)) Everything is ONLY because he attracts us....otherwise how on earth can we have this bliss?!

May Hari always keep us with him ....well & safely bound in LOVE!

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Tanvi- Pls join us back yaar! Do not enjoy HIS company in seclusion excluding us....:-(( Join us back plsZZZZ:-)

A silly episode!

Hello All,

Happy Navarathri to ALL:-))

I was not in a position to visit our blog-space for a long time yet I kept thinking about our dear "All About Krishna" site yes only because its ALL ABOUT HIM & my dear friends who love HIM more than anything!

I feel like sharing an episode which is happening at present in my home....ya well how can anything be NOT about him???

As you all know am married and settled here in Chennai & I have a sister-in-law who lives in Chennai ofcourse she lives quite away from our place. She is hmmmm a nice person but at times it takes quite a lot of effort to make things work. However I Love her & ALL sincerely. When my lovable Lord resides in my heart how can my heart not Love anyone?

Couple of days back we learned from my mother-in-law that my sister-in-laws' husband has got a chance to pursue his higher studies abroad. He may have to be away from India for 2 whole yrs. The situation is such that He can't earn much when he studies there & it won't be sufficient enough for them to set a family there. Theirs was a love marriage and my SIL is not in good terms with her in-laws for her to go and stay there. So everything narrowed down to a point wherein my MIL indirectly kept saying she(SIL) might as well join us in our family for 2 yrs. I will certainly have to be honest here when I say I totally HATED that idea!!!!! My husband too finds it difficult to handle her so he was reluctant to have her here with us. He indirectly kept refusing the idea by telling my MIL.., " ASK her to leave along with her husband!! She can search for a job there...." Ya he never gave his consent for her to stay here which brought little peace in my heart.

For my MIL my husband is GOD! She can never act against his will or against his likes......so she was kind of in a pickle. All these things kept really itching me....because everyday I try my BEST to be a good DIL, good wife, good daughter over all a good human being to please my LORD. Ya its soooooooooooooooo easy to say...."Whats the big deal? invite her and live happily with her hehehehe" but you know reality isn't that easy!! perhaps had she been a sweet person situation would have been totally different. Anyway I kept discussing everything with my Krishna in my room ofcourse I always whisper am used to it now. Then I kept thinking..."What the hell am I doing? How can a female be alone for 2 years all by herself? & being a Krishna bakthai How can I let that happen?"

Lord Rama welcomed Vibishana despite the fact that he was an asura(in the rival grp) so sweetly the moment Vibhishana seeked HIS(our lord's) refuge......He din't give a second thought to it even when Jambhavan and other dear devotees din't like the idea. What is the point in reciting Ramayana with immense devotion and not following his values?

So thinking about all these factors I convinced myself to welcome her here happily and to make her feel happy here for the entire 2 years no matter what she says to me.

But then thoughts like..." Ayyoooo she'll put an end to my freedom for 2 yrs...........she'll fight with my husband in a loud voice & spoil our weekend.....She'll insult my bakthi in a very obvious manner"......ALL such thoughts kept haunting me & then I decided ......" NO!!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!! Why would I be a stupid? Let her take-off wherever! It is her family need! They will have to figure out a better plan and not bother others for their goals."

Then again I couldn't even face Krishna....I couldn't even sit with him & have a cup of coffee....:-(

Then I thought Ok...."Its my responsibility to call her here. How can I stand the fact that one female expected our help and was refused. My lord would never forgive me for this. Whatever it is.....I shall do it for my lord and I shall be happy about it!!!"

See just imagine guys...., It was decided that Lord Rama would be crowned as king. The whole City was rejoicing that night. The kingdom was full of JOY.....everybody were busy in preparing for the GRAND occasion. Rama was obviously happy and so was Sita:-))) The very next morning that is when He was supposed to be a KING he was sent to forest!!!!!!!!!! and HE still went not with a sober face but happily.....happily he accepted his responsibility! HAPPILY he lived in forest and never did he think about missing anything there.....wow!  and are we talking about 2 yrs or 5 yrs here???? NOPE!!!!! 14 whole years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its lame to compare:-( I know!!!! but only for US he taught sooooooooooooooooo much.......din't he??? And he doesn't even expect us to do such Herculean things in life:-)) But little things that we do can be from his teachings right??? For whom did he teach otherwise? 

After thinking about Ramayana deeply, I was so excited about inviting her here....Yes Its my responsibility and even if it is for many years I shall do it happily....when MY LORD is with me why should I worry about anything! HE is all my pleasure!!!! Who would take that away from me??? then why on earth should I even give a second thought to anything? 

I convinced my husband for her to stay here and then we insisted my MIL to invite her here........my MIL was so relieved:-)))) & then I sat and had a wonderful cup of coffee with my krishna......ofcourse we never spoke about such things.......there were better things by then hehehe

The entire episode might be very silly but then you know such things happen in life........lets never give-up his teachings! I am not matured enough to say this....had I been matured enough I wouldn't have blogged about so many confusions that haunted me .....I would have acted matured in the first place:-( But the whole idea of blogging it was that there can be so many frnds like me who are in a dilemma to choose from options "Following his values & pleasing him" or "just acting what the pleasure bound fake mind says" .......just wanted to encourage the 1st option which would give us permanent place in his heart and what better to ask!!!

My Krishna Jayanthi blog!

Krishna, my mind gets clouded with darkness of ignorance
let this simple lover attain you without such hindrances

Govindha, at times this heart stays still in front of you like a stone
Let this tiny heart melt comprehending your kindness shown

 

Gopala, my bewildering mind overlooks your mercy many a times
Let this stupid girl realize your love which is beyond extremes

Achyutha, my eyes have lost sight trapped in a cave of forgetfulness
Let this girl remember your caring smile and regain all her senses

 

Hari, Who lifted govardhana hill, one who resides in venkatagiri hill
Let this poor girl find her path to attain your lotus feet to stay blissful

Vittala, despite me being unfit, my lips forget to plea
Let this dumb girl ever not forget that she belongs to thee

Love U a lot Govindha!

Govindha-longing to see YOU!

Oh Sri Hari, I just read about the way you have blessed one of your devotees...cannot stop thinking about you hence thought why not blog about YOU!

I can't wait to see you my charming Govindha....

I yearn for that wonderful moment of bliss

Air around me is filled with sigh being unable to hold U & kiss

"Radhe Govindha bajo" clapping & smiling, we dance in my imagination

My heart swells with ecstasy & am incapable of penning it in my narration

SriRanga natha, I imagine wrapping my arms lovingly around ur broad shoulders

peacefully wake up & look at me once with your lotus eyes sparkling with love ever

Enticed at ur naughty glance,I visualize embracing U with overflowing passion

without traces of ur Kasturi tilak on my cheek,my dream never attains completion

Love U Narayana! Love U!

Sweet Ladoos from my Govindhan!

This is my first post here in this group blog. Am glad I was invited to it. Thanks to all:-)
Am here very far away from my very favorite T -Nagar perumal koil & of course Tirupati. I miss my Govindha too much here....Its miserable that I don't get to see him in his full alankaram(lovely decorations) nevertheless everyday so many times I think about one special moment which happened in Tirupati 1 & half years ago when I got married. Well, there were several wonderful moments in my life with my Govindhan...oh lovely perumal...What to say about his love & grace??
I would like to share about that special day....

In my In-laws' custom, whenever somebody gets newly married, they book Kalyana Urchavam for perumal in Tirupati. I was so excited & thrilled about going to Tirupati to see my athma purushan. We were supposed to be there by 10.30 or 11 am I guess..but unfortunately our train got delayed for about an hour so we couldn't make it to the Urchavam bcoz the kalyana urchavam had already commenced by then and the security couldn't allow us. Well..., it was jam-packed. Hence we were directed to the general darshan after having to skip the urchavam. Honestly speaking I didn't feel bad because I was all thrilled about getting to see him(ya the darshan) I never took that incident to be a bad sign or nothing of that sort because I always knew that HE LOVES me(only with his grace) but while we were in our queue, one of my relatives looked at me and told me..."Perhaps U do not have the luck to see Perumal!". I Just smiled and never replied back neither did I feel bad. Yes again I knew that can't be it.....as several times I have experienced his lovely expression of love which has always been my life no matter what happens in my wordily life.
                                            I completely forgot about all such happenings & conversations and We were blessed with his lovely darshan. Now, it was time for us to buy the ladoos. We had our urchava tickets with us plus we had our darshan tickets yet not even a single counter offered us ladoo.....ya believe me....we asked each & every counter there and the answer was, "sorry no ladoos!" can anybody believe this?? We were the only ones who were deprived of having ladoos in the ladoo counter and rest of the folks got it...what was shocking was that we never got any reasons for not getting ladoos from the counter. just "sorry no ladoos!" Nobody would believe this that easily...we tried hard, stood in queue but just our family alone never got the ladoos......Everybody started panicking ....I was a new DIL & everybody looked at me sooooo differently and they started whispering to each other..."We have been to Tirupati and never such incidents had taken place to us"......I was still glad and calm because I can NEVER ever think about perumal in such a note....u know like, maybe he is punishing or nothing of that sort. Ya I can never be pessimistic about his love & grace (with his kind mercy) I don't care what others say to me.....Perumal loves me(like he does everybody) and I know that. Even if we were to be thrown out of Tirupati I wouldn't & cannot suspect his love and grace. However I was amazed at such strange happenings. Then finally we got to another ladoo counter wherein the gentleman incharge redirected us to the main entrance of the temple. He requested us to get ladoos from the security counter there in the main entrance of the temple. Can anybody believe this??? The ladoo counter was offering ladoos to everybody but to us alone he had us redirected to the security.... We were bewildered & we started discussing saying, "WHAT? How come??? In ladoo counter they denied to offer ladoos and how come in the security counter are they going to offer ladoos?" alright anyway as directed we (just the 4 of us ) went to the security counter and hesitantly requested for ladoos. The security immediately called a young boy and requested him to bring us ladoos. The boy ran to fetch ladoos...we waited ..waited and waited...the boy never returned....and LO!!!!!!!!!!! The Urchava moorthy (my sweeeeeet perumal) with his ever beautiful thaayar came there right in front of us with all mangala vadhyam(divine instruments). We got to see him soooooooooo close.....It wasn't crowded AT ALL there except for the people who brought the Urchava morthy & thaayar there. It was kind of an exclusive darshan. I just forgot everything and ran along with the Urchava moorthy till how much ever I could...crying in love .....calling out "Govindha...Govindha...Govindha...." Wow!!!! That moment was soooooooo special not because he proved my relatives to be wrong about me not being lucky to see perumal.....I don't care about all that(yet perumal cared for everything) That moment was so special because I could see and feel his love again (as ever)...Imagine if we had got our ladoos in the ladoo counter itself we wouldn't have seen perumal because that lies in a different corner all together. It was ALL his play.... his wonderful and lovely game. After having a wonderful darshan of Urchava moorthy that young boy came running with covers of huge and delicious ladoos
I Love my Govindha ......

Even now after singing my routine bhajans, I was looking at his images in my PC, my husband was commenting very kindly though "can U not think about anything else other than HIM?" what to say??? I just smiled:-)) But ya I cannot and would not want to think, dream, aspire, crave, laugh, cry..for anything else other than HIS love.

Love U Narayana! EVER...